I've been busy, but I've had posts in mind everyday.
I don't feel exactly the same anymore about everything I'm going to type but I remember what I was thinking at every point I thought about posting for you and I'm going to write it all.
Saturday!
119 lbs!!! (118.9 to be exact lol) I was so excited and feeling so good that I did a happy dance right there in the bathroom. Then it was time to go with my mom for prom dress shopping. Wasnt likeing much, things clung to stomach fat and hugged my hips wayy to tight. After a taco, beans, chips, and fries for lunch almost all of my excitement about my body had faded away. It DID NOT help when there was this cookie-cutter cheerleader (gorgeous brown hair, skinny, tan, white teeth) trying on clothes in the fitting room right by me. I'd walk out in my dress hating how it hugged all the wrong spots and shed walk out like a princess in hers. Plus, I had to listen to the people she was with saying do you need a smaller size? is the zero too big? With my mom and friend by me saying is that 4 too small? should we get you a 6? Out for dinner, fries and a chicken sandwhich. Did a rough total of the days calories in my head. Over 2,000. :(
Sunday: Woke up not feeling to great. Didn't have the most amazing night. Didn't want to eat but my boyfriend cooked me breakfast anyway. Small breakfast, lunch, and dinner was all today. and a piece of candy. Decent I guess. I found a prom dress that I'm in love with, so that helped my mood considerably. I wanted to be 117 by March 1st, after my eating yesterday I'm worried I've gone up and ruined the chances of that:/ I'll check my weight in the morning.
Love you all,
stay strong!!
Thinspo
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